#LoveMe – share a secret

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  1. Why are you doing #LoveMe?
  2. A photo of you
  3. A word that describes you
  4. A person who loves you
  5. A note to the past you
  6. A note to the future you
  7. One thing that’s just for you
  8. Share a scar
  9. Share something beautiful
  10. Share a secret
  11. Share a smile
  12. Share a flaw
  13. Share a quote
  14. Share a fear you overcame
  15. Something you have done right
  16. Something you like about yourself 
  17. Something that feeds your soul
  18. Something that feeds your brain
  19. Something you feel strongly about
  20. Something you love to wear
  21. Something you are proud of
  22. What makes you unique?
  23. What is your best feature?
  24. What makes you happy?
  25. What makes you laugh?
  26. What makes you feel beautiful?
  27. What have you accepted about yourself?
  28. What have you learned from doing #LoveMe these past twenty-eight days?

I don’t really have secrets. Not like the ones you see on TV or in movies or books. I have things I don’t tell people, but I wouldn’t call them secrets because it wouldn’t be the biggest of deals if people find out about these things. It just wouldn’t be particularly pleasant for one reason or another.

But, in the spirit of the challenge, I think I’ll share a fear that I don’t particularly like to talk about.

Day to day, hour to hour, sometimes even minute to minute, I’m terrified that I’ve made the wrong decisions; that I’ve done something that put me down the wrong path or not done something that could’ve set me down the right one. Because of this, I think I have a bit of a fear of commitment. Not in the way that I never want to be in a long term relationship or anything like that, I’ve been in two. But I’m always just that little bit terrified that I’ve made the wrong decision in who I choose or don’t choose.
It can get a little bit paralysing sometimes. If you are scared to make a decision, you usually let the opportunity pass you by and that in and of itself is a decision, and usually the wrong one.

I’m trying to work on this particular fear. There’s no way of knowing if you’ve made the right decision or whether something is a mistake until you make the choice. So it’s usually better to just do the thing.

What’s that thing? You are more likely to regret the things you didn’t do rather than the things you did.

I don’t want to be scared to have regrets anymore.

 

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About Bec Graham

Bec Graham, 24, was born on the wrong continent. Everything from her burns-like-paper skin tone to her inability to cope with the slightest hint of a hot day suggests she should have been born under the gloomy skies and mild sun of the UK. She hopes writing will get her to her rightful home one day. Failing that, she scans the skies for a spinning blue police box, hoping to catch a lift back to the motherland.
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2 Responses to #LoveMe – share a secret

  1. Deborah says:

    I can understand that fear. I feel it too a little. But it’s interesting as I listened to something the other day which basically said ‘whatever decision we make is the one we were meant to make’. I can’t remember where I read it or heard it. It was someone like Danielle LaPorte or Elizabeth Gilbert / Brene Brown etc…

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